What am I doing with my life?!  Man....I am such a loser....back to the corner I go, all alone....Staying out of the public eye....and steering clear of social interaction

JUST LET ME BE

I stand in the doorway
A gleam of light shines through the crack
I cannot move
My body is frozen

I turn my head
Glancing at a mirror beside me
I can see a reflection of myself
And pictures of the past that are still with me

I lose myself
Finding myself back in the images that I had just seen

Feeling the hurt, pain, and anger

That I had endured before

The memories of a broken heart

And tears of anger and disappointment

Run through my mind as I try to process

Where I am

I bow my head in shame

As I reflect on what I did wrong

On What I didn’t do

And why things are the way they are

As the light gets brighter

I lift my head with pride and confidence

Knowing that everything is ok

And that everything will be just fine

I suddenly feel movement within me

I slowly turn my head

And make my way through the door labeled “Present”

Not knowing what is behind it

Entering the other side

I lock the door behind me

I throw away the key

And take a step forward

As I continue walking

The images start to vanish

I feel a sense of relief

Knowing that I will never look back again

By: Raymond

This is some deep shiet....good stuff ray good stuff

"My Boo"
(feat. Alicia Keys)

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

New Layout....Same Shitty life....peace

Excerpt from my friend, "The Wiseman"

So anyway, I was talking to a younger friend today online, and he just decided to tell this girl he's liked for some time now, how he felt. And how original is that when the girl acts as if she never knew. It's classic. I must say he was pullin some of that same stuff I was back in the day, with the "it's okay if you don't want to respond; I just wanted you to know." I think the most important thing for anyone to do in this business (and yes I know it is cliche, but I will say it anyway) be honest. But what people fail to remember is that  it is just as important to be honest with the girl as you are honest with yourself. It's one thing if you only knew the girl for a relatively short amount of time and it is natural to have to get to know her better, personally. But it is also a totally different thing when you've known this girl for so long and have invested almost as much time trying to be noticed (as more than just a friend). At some point, guys and girls gotta realize that by suppressing what we truly want and what we truly want to say, we allow more time to justify our silence, to wait for that "glimmer of hope" that may never even come. The purest and truest of emotions are those of the moments. The instantaneous moments which allow little time to rationalize our external obligations for political correctedness or accommodations of others' expectations. Sadly I don't ever believe pure emotions can ever be verbalized or articulated for others to comprehend. The best we can do is recognize what we want to say now, and that's all that matters. The emotions and thoughts, that with proper contemplation and refinement, are then conveyed, are no longer pure or true, they are secondary, they are rationalized, they are modified, they cease to be from the heart, but evolve to be from the mind, from what YOU want to say, to become what THEY want to hear... This is the paradox of human emotion. If you hold it in, you become restless and disappointed, if you come out with it too quickly- you may be misunderstood. If you wait too long, it may be too hard to accept the response.

If we just allow ourselves to take each day as they come and stop "planning" too much, maybe then we will be able to see the blessings that we are granted each day in the form of our families and friends... Everything is put into perspective once we place our faith in God and our faith in our own free will to choose our destinies... God Bless